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.You got your first time out of the way.”Charlee agreed, not wanting to argue, but she wondered how many of the people that did stuff likethis had to face their one night stands every day.The school chess labs weren’t mandatory every day,but they had to do a lab at least twice a week.Then there was the U.S.team.They met less often, butthey’d even be traveling together eventually.Things could get very awkward.She finally decided shewouldn’t do what she normally did and worry about something that hadn’t even happened yet.Last night, Drew had watched her very closely as Charlee gave her the blow by blow of hermake-out session with Hector.Well, Charlee’s version of the blow by blow.She’d kept a few things to herself, like how incredibly aroused she’d been.She’d never felt anything like it.Finally sheunderstood what the big deal about sex was, and she hadn’t even had the real thing yet.Last night hadbeen just a precursor, and it’d been amazing.She really should slow down with the fantasies.Charlee should be happy that they were not sofarfetched anymore.Even now, she could still easily close her eyes and vividly remember, not justimagine anymore what it felt like to be kissed by him, feel his tongue on her neck, making the mostprivate of places tingle in reaction.But as much as she promised Drew she’d take it all in stride,things had already changed.Even after last night under her blankets, her fantasies had also gone nowfrom the most sexual in nature to replaying his words and the look in his eyes when he’d said them toher over and over in her mind.“Trust me, Charlotte.I know you’re different.So different.So sweet.”Hearing the sound of her own name had never left her so breathless.But the most breathtaking ofall, and she closed her eyes once again to relive it, was his telling her she was beautiful.Only oneother guy had ever said that to her before, and she’d thought for sure he’d ruined that complimentforever.But she’d been so wrong.Hearing Hector say it had been completely different.She’d seenthe sincerity in his eyes—felt it in his kisses.“Charlee?”“Um hmm?” She didn’t open her eyes in response to Drew, simply continued to picture Hector’sintense eyes looking deep into hers when he’d spoken to her.“Please tell me you’re just resting your eyes because you’re tired and that lovesick smile on yourface isn’t what it looks like.”Charlee opened one eye and glanced at Drew who was driving.“It’s not.”She closed her eye again, hating that she was cursed with a best friend who was so damndiscerning.The girl never missed a thing.It was a wonder Drew hadn’t foreseen last year’s debaclebefore it happened.The rest of the day, Charlee managed to keep her mind on her volunteer duties for the most part.Itwasn’t too hard.They kept her busy.But inevitably, she’d find herself daydreaming and even feelingher body quiver at times with thoughts of Hector’s kisses and the mesmerizing way he gazed at her allnight—that amazing smile.Of course, each time she’d fall too deeply into it, Drew had caught her, and each time she seemeda little more concerned about Charlee getting her hopes up too high.Drew’s subtle reminders thatHector hadn’t asked for Charlee’s number and that he’d shown up with two girls, began to getannoying.Charlee didn’t even bother trying to explain what he’d said about how the girls had just sohappened to show up at the same time he’d been ready to walk in.She knew it would only furtherDrew’s worrying because it would sound as if Charlee were making excuses for him already.Thefact remained, whether he’d showed up with them or not, that it didn’t take from what they’d seen himdo with those same two girls last week: the very thing he’d done with Charlee last night at the gym,except he’d clearly done much more with them since those girls had gone home with him.The whole day had been a roller coaster of emotions.Charlee would begin to scold herself forgetting so carried away when it could very well have been just a onetime thing for him, something heprobably did all the time.She was sure he wasn’t obsessing about it today like she was.More thanlikely, he had plenty of plans with other girls this weekend already.With that thought in mind, she’d move on to convincing herself that if that was the case she’d befine and would not freak out.She’d be stupid to fall apart again when she should be thankful like Drew said to have gotten her first onetime make out with a guy out of the away.And of all guys tohave gotten it out of the way with, it had been Hector.She’d be happy that she got to at leastexperience what it felt like to be kissed by him, especially after fantasizing about it for so long.Remembering his kisses would only take her full circle again, replaying the way he’d stared at herall night, the possessive way he’d held her on the dance floor, how he’d held her face in his hands,and those kisses.How in the world could she just shrug away such an amazing experience? The mostamazing experience she’d had with a guy ever.And she’d be back to square one, worrying thatthere’d be no way she’d get over this as easily as Drew thought she could or should.As much as she tried to convince herself it was just an infatuation with him, that she didn’t knowhim well enough or even remotely enough to be so hung up on him this soon, she knew better.She’dbeen in tears after what happened on Thursday at their chess meeting, and he hadn’t even touched her.By the end of the day, she was spent.She’d gone full circle with this whole thing more times thanshe cared to think about anymore.All she could do now is wait and hope that, worst case scenario,she’d be strong enough to deal with it and get over it faster than the last time she’d been crushed
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